My Poor Dear Wife

I felt wholeheartedly sorry for my wife. Not only she's conceiving, also having to look after tens of patients in medical ward has started to take its toll. She's disressed, exhausted, hungry and easily hurt. I hope she will cope well. And I pray for her.

I felt rather a strange but pleasant feeling when we headed towards antenatal clinic last sunday for a brief check up. The experience of seeing the fetal movement, the heartbeats, the kicking of 'my' own offspring inside the ultrasound monitor is just undescribable.. It's just unbeliavable.. I can't believe that I'm a future daddy. Do i hear it right? A papa.. is in the making..

It's possibly best to cultivate the best environment for the new family member. I will perform my daily zikr, purify my heart and control my emotions.. Insya Allah, that'll help to develop a super generation! By grace of Almighty God.

"Apabila Bapaknye Pesakit Mengamuk"

Entahlah, kesal pun ada.. nak marah pun ada.. Moga Allah meletakkan daku di kalangan orang yang bersabar..

Jam 2pagi, sepasang suami isteri dengan anak yang melecur kakinya masuk. Sang lelaki bertubuh gempal. Anak menangis tak berhenti-henti..kesakitan..

Rupa2nya terkena air panas.. Kecuaian ibu-bapa, bagaimana air yg panas boleh dicapai oleh sang anak yang baru berusia setahun.. Alamat menangis lah sang bayi yang malang..

Aku dilatih untuk sedaya upaya mengurangkan derita kesakitan bayi, yang pertama ku fikirakan adalah memasukkan iv line supaya ubat penahan sakit dapat diberi. Setelah memasukkan ubat penahan sakit melalui duburnya, kami mencuba. Sekali, dua kali dan akhirnya tiga kali... gagal.. Anak kecil ini bertubuh gempal, langsung tidak kelihatan urat venanya. Sang ayah makin tidak sabar.. tangisan bayi pula menusuk kalbu.. kesian..

Sang ayah mula bersuara, kenapa tidak dirawat kaki yang melecur dulu, dok sibuk2 nak cucuk aje.. ' nadanya mengancam.. Aku cuba terangkan yg rawatan tidaklah semudah yg disangka, bukan dengan membalut kaki, bayi itu akan berhenti menangis. Dia menangis kerana kesakitan, jadi kesakitanlah yang kita kena tangani dahulu... oleh kerana dia mendesak, aku ingin merujuk kepada doktor plastic. 'Mana fail pesakit?' aku menanya, 'Belum daftar', aku bertanya 'Kenapa tidak mendaftar?'..

Sang ayah mula naik darah, 'dok gaduh nak daftar! Bukannya nak rawat anak aku!? Nak biar anak aku mampus ke?' Mulalah dia marah2 mengungkit yang aku tidak memberikan rawatan yg wajar. Tidak mengubati anaknya, bahkan mendera melalui pelbagai cucukan'. Matanya merah dijegilkan. Aku naik meluat. paling aku geram sebab percakapannya biadap dan menengking-nengking.

Bayi tidaklah serius mana, sekadar first degree burn, yang tidak perlu dimasukkan ke wad pun..

Aku turut panas, tapi cuba bersabar.. aku tepuk bahu dia dan berkata lembut, 'api dengan api takleh jadi.. jgn marah2 kita nak rawat budak ni.. saya nak dia didaftar supaya maklumat pesakit boleh direkodkan..'

Sang isteri geleng kepala, memberi isyara supaya saya tidak meneruskan ber'dialog' dengan dia. Sang suami keluar seketika, tidak puas hati. Sang isteri berbisik, 'dia memang macam tu .. panas baran. Saya pun selalu kena. Doktor jangan layanlah dia sangat'

Akhirnya aku rujuk kepada doktor bahagian plastik untuk rawatan. Bayi dibenarkan pulang sejam kemudian.. Tangis pun dah berkurangan..

Mungkin ada himahnya. Aku bertolak ke Cameron Highland beberapa hari kemudian bersama isteri tercinta.. Bolehlah merawat hati yang 'terluka'.. Huhu..

busy busy busy...

salam and good day

well, it's past 10 pm already.
it's been a very busy day with loads and loads of patients.. just imagine, up till 200pm, i still could not finish treating those patients coming from 10am.. what a hectic day.. sigh

i came across an extremely ude guy threatening to smack off my poor staff nurse, while she was trying to take the blood of his 7 days old baby boy? presented with jaundice, saying, no shouting to be exact, things like 'mu kerja lama jangan kurang ajar! Anak aku baru 7 hari mu reti dok?' that really really pissed me of! how could he say such threatening words' i asked the other staffs to call the security. Shame on him, and his kopiah!

luckily the wife hugged him, kissing his cheeks and calmed him down.. apologising to us for what he did/say. poor wife, not only she has to look after that small little baby, but also this below-age-seemingly-old-enough-but-very-rude-childish guy who behaves in a such silly manners...

now a relief.. i think if he lay his hand on my staff nurse, i'd have a smacked him down. I may not win, but surely i don't care and i've never been so pissed of like that for ages...

the felt strange.. do i really know myself?.. subhanallah.. all glory to Him!

That's the worst part. The good part is i learnt on how to manage a patient with SVT, stands for supraventricular tachyarrythmias.. very bad irreagular fast paced heart beat causing chest pain, palpitations and drop in blood pressure. I learn how to start iv esmolol 20mg, (unsuccessful) and then i cardioverted the patient under sedation of iv dormicum and fentanyl (100mg) pain relief using the defibrillator (as seen on TV) to God's glory, the pulse rate of 200 went down to 80-90 with nomal regulat heart beat.. I quickly arrange for admission after stabilizing the blood pressure with iv dopamine and dobutamine. the sad news that i heard later, he had a cardiogenic shock in cardica care unit. May Allah helps Him..

been coughing a lot lately.. sorethroat, feeling feverish.. thanks God i'm off for tomorrow..